¬ LOL ¬

LoL
It's me =]

¬ outsider ¬

UCSI university just put me on their waiting list with the reason of " I am an OUTSIDER"
They look so warm and friendly
I know what an OUTSIDER should go for
They don't mean to hurt me because they just don't reject me precisely

Do I have a chance to join you?
Sometimes maybe you will need a black though it's a dirty colour
Am I an OUTSIDER for you?

¬ Destroyable ¬

you will never know
how it feels.......
when someone tells you she will die without others than you =[

sorry
I am not invulnerable

~ something you would never know ~

Maybe you are one of them?
Yea, it is not a great feeling :(
I have it every moment when I am with you

~ Imperfection ~

I am so sorry about my innate Imperfection :(

My ugly appearance has become the dominant allele in my DNA
My unbearable jealousy of you has filled my body
My stupidity in speaking has made misunderstand between us
My idleness in KH room has made my brain just full with your shadows
My inaccurate timing of calling on you has made some inconvenience in your hustle life
My worries about you seems to be my favourite habits throughout my daily routine
........................................................................................................................

Actually,
I just need a comforting sound from you
I just need an affirmation from you
or
I just need to take a nap ? ><

let pray for the imperfect, poor GUY
:)

~ So Sorry ~

My friends =]
If you are reading this post then you will know who is the friends I am mentioning ;)

I am just so sorry
I know I don't deserve your concern or maybe just a greeting
I am not a good friend I know
I do know I can't be your close friend anymore
When I heard that, really it hurt me so bad
But you all are right, I am the one who gave gush to you all

I do have a girlfriend
I don't mean to say "no" when I get your friendly invitation
I am not spending all the time with her
I am just so sorry
I don't think "Recently I am having emotion problem..." is the reason to reject you all
I do hope my apologies would be accepted though I don't deserve your forgiveness

Trust me
I am with you
Always

I am sorry ;(

~ who Are YoU? ~

Don't you still remember a guy who is just damn ugly?

Don't you still remember a guy who can just simply make you smile with his appearance?
Don't you still remember a guy who will never cry in front of all the spectators?

Don't you still remember a guy who doesn't care about other critics about all his behaviour?
Don't you still remember a guy who likes to play balloons with little children?
Don't you still remember a guy who always playing with jokes?
Don't you still remember a guy who you will miss the most when you are in upset?
Don't you still remember a guy who you will like him the most when you are just having a sick love?
Don't you still remember a guy who you will hope to spend time with when you are crying?
Don't you still remember a guy who is always the best in your mind because whenever it is, wherever you are, whoever make you sad, there is always him to be with you?
Don't you still remember who is the guy?

ohhh
is this the guy you are looking for?

opps
maybe this one is not the guy that you miss
but everytime when I look at the mirror

he is there......
Can he make me smile?
Even just a moment
Do I deserve the happiness what he gave you all?

~ are you a boy? ~

Am I a boy?
Are you kidding me?

LoL
Isn't it a ridiculous enquiry?
What answer do you expect from me?
Show me the traits of a boy please !!

A boy doesn't cry easily
A boy doesn't sob by himself
A boy does like playing games
A boy does't care about anything
A boy doesn't hesitate in making decisions
A boy doesn't depend on other people
A boy doesn't think too much in daily
A boy doesn't like staying at home
A boy doesn't like waiting
A boy doesn't worry about someone
A boy does masturbation
A boy does like movies
A boy does like hanging out with others
A boy does like porn

A boy does like mathematics
A boy does like handsome
A boy does like pretty
A boy does like himself
A boy does ........................

Ohhhh.....
undoubtedly,
I
Am
A
GIRL....

pitiful JiaYi
He does hating himself :(